Saturday, June 20, 2009

"A prayer to the God of my life"

My devotions landed me in Psalm 42 this week. I hope and pray that this psalm can encourage you as it has me.

This beautiful psalm (which, by the way, I would encourage you to read!!) opens with the psalmist declaring that he longs for God the way a deer longs for water. But why is he longing for God? Because for whatever reason, men are surrounding him, demanding to know where his God is. The psalmist, in tears, doesn't have an easy answer. He remembers when he led triumphant people into the temple, worshiping God, but now, his soul is "cast down" and "in turmoil." Still, the psalmist forces himself to remember God's salvation in the past, and reminds himself to hope in God.

Sometimes, it isn't always easy to know where God is. I've certainly had moments in the past few weeks when I've wondered why God's doing what He's doing. I know He's sovereign. I've seen Him work in the past. But when life hits, and you feel like you're on a roller-coaster ride, and you can't see how God's working, it doesn't seem so easy anymore. You desire God, even pant after Him, but you don't know how to find Him.

For me, verse eight was the beautiful reminder that I needed, in the midst of confusing, conflicting emotions. "By day the Lord commands His steadfast love, and at night His song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life." God's love is steadfast. It doesn't change. My circumstances and my reaction are what change. The God of my life is there, steadfast, giving me His song. (You knew I'd throw the song in there, didn't you??) The song He gives me becomes my prayer. With that song, prayer, and the knowledge of His steadfast love, I'm enabled to hope and trust in Him, no matter if life makes sense or not.

As I read this psalm, my definition of thirst for God was completely transformed. Desiring God isn't some ambiguous thing that only the super-spiritual can achieve. It's something that can manifest itself in long hours in the Word or in prayer, or sometimes simply in clinging to a single promise He has given us. Thirsting for God is longing for His steadfast love to wash over you like a waterfall, even in the midst of tears. It's choosing to sing His song when circumstances seem to defy His presence. It's letting that song become a prayer... a prayer to the God of your life.

With love from an absolute doll,
Erin Joy
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Monday, June 15, 2009

Spring Semester Snapshots

It has been far too long since my wise (or not so wise...) thoughts have entered into the wonderful world of the blogosphere. I've been busy, I've been distracted, and it's high time that I blog again.

I've posted here a couple snapshots of the rest of my semester in the big city. The top photo is of me and my dear roommates. :) While these lovely ladies and I will not be rooming together next year, we had a great year as a threesome! All three of us were women's choir members, bringing me to my next fond memory.

I loved being part of the WCC!! I was able to serve as one of the Women's Concert Choir accompanists, which was so much fun. I played the piano, turned pages, carried dress bags, and sang... sometimes. :P I have so many good memories from our tour! We were able to travel to the northeastern part of the country and sing for many people. We had the chance to stay in the homes of the congregations where we performed, which was an incredible experience. We also were priveleged to see several people trust Christ at one of our concerts. It was a blessing to be part of it.

The semester wore on, and God taught me heaps of lessons along the way. Lessons like managing my time and trusting Jehovah-Jireh to provide have been difficult, but much needed lessons to learn. God has been so good to me. It's hard to believe that I'm back in my tiny rural town, far away from the big city. I can't wait to see what the summer holds! I'm currently planning to work as a news reporter and as a waitress. (For a small doll, I've gotten some decent tips... I think some people are just impressed that I can reach the table!)

Well... as much as I know you'd love to hear all about my summer escapades, we'll have to save those for another post. Keep me in your prayers!!

With love from an absolute doll,

Erin Joy
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